today. everything will just be so freaking plain. heard of the car and oil metaphor? well, its like this. imagine, oil represents encouragement&care while the car represents me. u, my special someone, is inside the car which is the shape of a freaking heart. car depends on oil to continue running. without it, the car will die off or worst still, break down. so when the person inside the heart car constantly gives oil the car, the car will run forever effectively and will not breakdown. it is able to run down any obstacles in the way. the whole metaphor expresses what a relationship should be. imagine, if the person in the car is sad, he/she will not deposit oil to the car. therefore both is affected. a relationship should always be a two-way thing. equal in giving in and equal in taking. all this was freaking thought by me when i was freaking EMo.

everything is affecting me. studies, family. i hate it. when i say that u don't care, it doesn't mean that it has affected my feelings for you. it simply means put some oil in me. yet, i can't freaking believe it that u agreed not to care for me. i'm so freaking hurt. it's not your fault. maybe u are different, in the way u show u love me. or maybe i'm just a freaking loser who asks for too much. thinking about this, when did i ever ask u for anything. all i wanted was the best for u. don't worry. this stupid obstacle has not affected my love for u one bit.

sacrifices. such a strong word. everyone makes sacrifices. may it be big or small. its just that this is the first ever time i'm putting so much sacrifices into a relationship. yet, i'm happy putting all efforts on u. all i need is just some freaking OIL. i know u put sacrifices too. thank you for that. sorry, but i can'thelp thinking that me, the one taking o' level has time for u and u, not taking o' level has no time for us. should it be the freaking other way round. i'm suffering. someone, put a bullet through my head, thank you. one thing that has caused me to feel relief today is that i have finished FNN coursework B. finally. for your information, i got 1918 for SBQ history today, havent gotten back SEQ. she cancelled one mark for me. for arrogance? she said. well its fine. leaving the blog freaking emo again. remember, none of this, and will never be, has affected my love for you. MAHAL KITA.


Phrase of the Day: Encouragement and Care keeps a relationship going.



no random pictures today. no mood to search, sorry. instead, i'll try u guys to a song lyrics. Enjoy.



"If I Fall"

This is for the ones who believe their lives won't change
Hoping that someday things will mend and be the same
This is for the ones who have lost it all when all that's left to gain
Is a simple reminder that the things that were blind to slip away...

How can I say...
Say I'll be okay...

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

Now that the lines been broken
I'm too afraid to just look back
The pages have left an empty space
You were all I had
Why does it have to be this way
These things they'll never change
Still I'm left with knowing, content and happy, this is all I need...

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on...